The Horrors Persist but So Do I

  I had such a good week.  Last week was just so good.  I slept over at a friend’s place. Actually, I slept over at two friends’ places. One of my friends got something she’d been wanting for a minute now, and the genuine congratulations all around the room? That was something special.   I feel everything so strongly—you’ve probably noticed by now.   Then I had lunch with my dad and aunt. These two match my humor perfectly, so the laughs were nonstop. And then, I was home for the weekend. Ugh, I don’t know, man. There’s just so much sunshine.   Sunshine on my face through my bedroom window. Sunshine warming me as I walk home, realizing that maybe the day wasn’t so bad after all. Sunshine after a string of rainy days. Sunshine as you share laughs, as you feel gratitude, as you notice the world isn’t as heavy as it sometimes seems.

★ The hot pink furry jacket I really liked as a little girl- nostalgia takes up so much storage space its's crazy ★My childhood bedroom I have outgrown the space not the comfort it used to bring ★External validation (ugh, why is this so hard?)-  I'm gonna say it now friends, nothing like a good dopamine hit. ★My screenshots that I rarely look at-  am I hoarding or archiving at this point ★Crying over every little thing-   self care or just lack of emotional boundaries. Discuss. ★Drinking on an empty stomach-This is just reckless at this point. Yet, here I am, sipping a cocktail and thinking, Why am I lightheaded?   is it reckless or financial savviness ( author's note) ★Takeout every day—how am I still doing this? I can cook. I know I can cook. But when you’ve had a long day, and someone else can make the decisions for you? Temptation wins every time.

  #1 Soul Chilling Cola for the Overwhelmed. Ingredients 1 can/ bottle of Coca-Cola (served preferably as cold as your existential dread) Ice cubes (optional for when you're feeling extra fancy) A glass...bonus points for a clean one Instructions Step 1: Open your cola with the gravitas of someone about to make a life altering decision. This is where the magic begins. Step 2: Pour it slowly into your glass; watching the fizz rise up like all your hopes and dreams in the face of adulthood. Step 3: Add ice cubes if desired and listen to that satisfying sizzle- like a round of applause for this culinary masterpiece. Step 4: Take a deep sip, lean back and appreciate the refreshing taste of zero responsibility (if only for a moment) Chef's Note: Goes best with a side of pretending everything is fine.

  So I’m listening to Michael Bublé’s Home and why is this making its way into my sad songs playlist? I’m fully aware it’s a love song, but like… home could mean a lot more than just a person, right? Let’s talk about it— 2024 has really been that year for single people, and I’m convinced we’ll never forget it. But, anyway, I digress. Really, though, sometimes it’s just the little things. I wanna go home, I wanna go to my girl apartment, maybe flop down on the carpet and cry because they were out of my favorite crisps at the store. You know, deep, life-altering stuff. Sometimes, that’s what home really is: the feeling of something familiar in a world that’s constantly trying to knock you down.

Not like in a poetic way gazes into each others eyes and shares secret laughs. In like a shit has hit the fan type situation. FACT: I have no problem with ‘locking in’ what I need to know is what I am locking (that’s a joke I hope you get it please laugh😭) like can someone come and sit with me in my living room and tell exactly what I am supposed to do .I have no problem with following instructions; you can kinda say I am pro external validation. But me? Decision make? Guyss come onn. My name is S and I have a crippling fear of decision making because and this is something I don’t hear y’all mentioning enough, what if I make a wrong decision and fail. Sit and watch guys this is the pipeline of talented kid turns overly anxious adult. Let me light some sage.

Hey there! Welcome to my little slice of the internet! 🎉 I just turned 25 this year, and as I dive into this exciting new chapter, I’m ready to share my reflections on the beautiful chaos of life. This blog is my way of journaling—not just for me, but for all of you who find joy in shared experiences. Together, we’ll navigate the noise and explore how art, music, and film connect with our journeys of resilience and growth. Why "The Horrors Persist but So Do I"? Life is a colorful mix of joy and struggle, and that’s exactly what makes it so interesting! The phrase "the horrors persist" captures those challenges we all face—moments that really test our mettle. But "but so do I" is my little mantra, reminding us of our incredible ability to endure and thrive. Through this blog, I want to reflect on how movies, songs, and personal stories mirror our lives and help us cope. What Can You Expect? Personal Musings : Get ready for candid reflections as I embrace ...