Nonya! ( Things that are none of your business)

How much self-awareness is too much self-awareness? Like, where does this self-awareness become debilitating? When does it stop working for the powers of good and start self-distracting?

Self-awareness. Overthinking. Rumination.

Very much aware of the all-over-the-place use of literary devices; it’s meant to trigger something. Plato who? Clock it!( I love saying this so much it's becoming a problem)

I truly think it’s a curse, this self-awareness that I have. Heavy is the head because I kid you not, I will ruminate? Can we say that? Myself into a bad mood. Part and parcel of why I’ve not been on here in so long.

Did you catch the subtext? I’ve missed you, dearest reader.

With that, here’s a list of things that are definitely none of your business:

• Why someone hasn’t texted you back (lmao if I haven’t texted you back and have posted on my Instagram story, I’m literally doing this for clicks sksks)

• How much someone is eating or not eating

• Bodily change?

• What someone does for money (I mean, unless...?)

• Whether aliens exist (like what are you really going to do with that information?)

• How much money someone has or you think they have

• Leaked music or leaked art (have some respect, please)

• If people think I’m funny (actually no this is a lie—I am hilarious and it is imperative that every interaction I have affirms that)

• Whether people are gossiping about you (y’all know that Meg song? I’ve said enough)

• How many books someone has read and whether they read (like, do you read enough to be doing all that?)

• How you look when you’re asleep

• The back of your head

And here’s what is very much your business:

• Your screen time

• Closing the rings (recently got an Apple Watch—cheers to new hobbies in adulthood? Whatever that means)

• Music playing in your space

• The energy you bring to a room

• How genuine your apology feels and is (do this often and gracefully)

• That everyone on the table has food before eating yours

• Realizing it’s all our first time living this life

• How you treat someone while dating them

• How you treat someone after dating them

• Having difficult conversations with great finesse

• Asking your friends about their family and other friends

• Not asking your friends about the family and friends they don’t talk about

• The media you consume

• The hours you sleep

• The food you eat

• How clothes feel on your body

• If 10-year-old you would think you’re cool

• If you now thinks you’re cool

• Your belief system

• If they ask you about your family and friends

• Your vocabulary

• The ability to be kind always, no matter the inconvenience (I have this down, it’s just that my face is usually wayyy too loud)

But like... did you see it? The things that are your business are so much, there’s literally no time for your nose to be in others’.

It might sound like I have it figured out. This morning, typing this out, I kinda do. Check in at midday.

The carousel? It stays turning.

Bisou bisou.💋