Hell yeah, Actually

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 I hate to say it—but maybe the key is having something to look forward to. Something small, maybe even silly. An activity, y’know? A plan. A moment on the calendar that isn’t just “wake up, survive, sleep, repeat.”

And not to toot my own horn too much, but I had two things happening this weekend. Three, technically—I just couldn’t make the third (social battery said: no ma’am). But the two I did make it to? Low-energy, chill, exactly my speed. No pressure to perform or be “on.” Just… existing around people who make me feel good.

I forget how healing that can be. Being around friends who don't need you to be anything more than present. Who laugh with you. Sit in silence with you. Share fries with you. Healing, I’m telling you.

So now it’s Monday morning and guess what? I’m pumped full of endorphins. Not in an overly caffeinated, take-on-the-world way. Just this soft, steady hum in my chest that says: you're okay. You're cared for. You had a good weekend.

You know what I say to that?

Hell yeah.




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